Monday, January 31, 2011

Another awesome blog!

I am posting here about a blog I check in with every week! You can find the blog at: http://bringingupsalamanders.blogspot.com/2011/01/2011s-first-giveaway.html

She is doing a give away right now and she has a few different ways that you can enter the contest!! She is super crafty and her blog is so full of light and love! :) Go check her out!! You won't regret it.

Take care,

Amanda

Palmistry blog

I was looking through blogger yesterday and I found this awesome blog about Palmistry! Go check it out at this link:

http://domesticwitch.blogspot.com/2011/01/palmistry.html?showComment=1296478850402#c2487656033497218221

I have always been interested in learning palmistry and this blog gave me some fun ideas for learning with friends. :) :) Go take a peek.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

It's snowing

As I gaze out the window and witness these unique soft, gentle flakes of snow flying through the sky I become lost in a day dream.. remembering tales of yesterday... things of today.. what would it be like to be a snow flake? Recently I've been sleeping away from my altar, where I usually give my thanks, so I haven't been as diligent with talking to the God and Goddess at night, but I still know how important it is to give thanks.  This world is an amazing place... and things happen for a reason.. just like the snow flakes float through the sky, we float through our days... we encounter events that were meant for us as a snow flake encounters a building or object which they either land on or pass by. This life is.. an amazing treat. We keep going and going until life says "HEY YOU! You need a break" or until life says "you've been lazy and wasting around for way too long, it's time to get you a jolt of motivation to get movin and get your feet wet in this life" it's just... amazing. We could have been in this life at anytime.. been born into our current circumstances at any time, maybe we have lived this life once before, but that's the magic of it... we are here now because we are supposed to be.  It kind of makes me think... are we suposed to come about circumstances of suicide? suicide is osmething that most people have thought about at one point in their life... is that a circumstance that some people are meant to do? I don't know... people who survive their attempts often go on in life to amazing things and realize what htey woul dhave missed if they were successful.  I'm not sure why this thought tangent led to such a scary topic, but it did and I apologize for that if it's a disturbing thought. I just think it's interesting. The city is so busy, but the snow.. just slows you down, if you notice it... it's a breath of fresh air.. .an amazing gift to tell us that everything will be ok.  This is why I love my path... I have such an appreciation for the simple things... the finer things in life... and this path lets me embrace that even more.. it's all about Nature and observation and being in tune with the world around you.  I love that. That is who I am. I am an Eclectic Witch and couldn't be happier to be so.... I capitalized that for a reason. I just love this world.. I love it. it's so warm and welcoming and it's like coming home again every time another piece of the World pops into my eye and says "Hi!" I just love it...

Thank you dear World, Universe, Gods and Goddesses, Ancestors, Sun, Moon, Stars, North, South, East, and West, spirits of the past, Nature, the dear unique snowflakes reading this blog.. and to you, dear snowflakes outside the window. Thank you <3

Remember... you are here for a reason... you are a unique creation with a purpose... take the time to stop and observe... appreciate... and LOVE.  This world is amazing <3

Always,
Amanda

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

My mind

Is a wander right now... it's a drift in a snowy forest, zooming around and observing every inch of the snowy, icy master piece presented by Nature. It's having fun sailing up and down trees, bouncing through snow, and feeling the light snow flakes falling onto it.  My mind is a happy camper right now. It's imagining me prancing through the forest with my brand new coat on, that I'm still waiting to recieve in the mail.. the purples, blues, and silvers of it vividly passing through the trees.. with me leaving foot prints as I prance down the wintry path. I can see myself prancing through the forest from the eyes of a bird... perched up in the tree... I can hear myself giggle at the sight of the brown bark on a tree.. I can feel my senses strengthening as I listen dearly to the sounds of the forest and smell the crisp snow, feel the cold, hear the crunch beneath my feet. Gosh, it is paradise....


Do you have anything that you are absolutely drawn to? For me, I could spend my life in a forest.  I could sit next to a tree forever.. and ever.. and then some more evers.  I could just breathe in the crisp air perched up next to the tree, day dreaming and seeing myself prance around in my own mind.. that is home for me... I could also spend forever outside in the winter.  It is SO cold, but I can get over that to spend time outside.  I just love the snow.. I love the uniqueness of this time of year... I love the look, the taste, the touch... the sound.. the smell.. I love it. Gosh.. do I love it.

Monday, January 24, 2011

New goal

Well, today I am working on a new "goal." I think it's great to start out every day or every week with a challenge.  Today/this weeks' challenge for me is to STOP hating my internship.
Issues: no activities to do, limited supervision, lots of bored time
Problem: HATE coming in
Solution:???

I have to solve this problem quickly because I am going to try to arrange my schedule so I can come in here four days a week in order to complete my hours faster.  I have to find more things to do and more ways to stay focused and entertained so that I don't go nuts and stop coming in to my internship, which I MAY do. I've already missed 2 weeks of this due to illness, so who knows.

Have you ever had a situation like this? Where you HAVE to do something day in and day out that you just absolutely HATE doing? How did you solve that problem?

I am trying to go back to see how I solved similar situations in the past.  The only thing I can think of is when I was at another internship like this and I started finding ways to help teachers.  My only fear with that is I am in a social work internship and I don't want my supervisor to be upset with me for doing tasks other than "social work" tasks. I want to talk to my supervisor, but I am afraid she is going to bog me down so much that I won't be able to handle it.  We'll see, right? It's just odd that on average I am busy 3 periods per day.  Everyone always thinks I'm doing something important because I'm always typing a lot, but really I'm just updating my blog or typing an email. I just... love to type so I do it fast and often.

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On another note. I am in a group that does really nice Rituals for each holiday and they sent an email through the group trying to decide about when the Ritual for Imbolc will be.  Unfortunately I can not attend because I have work on weekends, but it was nice seeing emails from people that I miss VERY much.  Then, one of my dear friends sent an email checking in on me.  It was really nice to see.  and I had exciting news to share!

Do you ever have one of those moments spiritually where something just clicks? You can feel the energy of the moment and you're soul screams "THIS IS RIGHT!!" I had one of those the other day.  I was using my tarot cards, which I don't often use... I usually go to my oracle deck, but I can't find them at the moment.  (I think the house Fairies have something to do with that). I pulled out my Raider Waite deck, which is wrapped nicely next to my bed.. I shuffled and I pulled the card that felt right. WOWEE! I pulled a card and I looked at it before I referenced the guide book.  I said exactly what came to mind when I saw the card and I reviewed it in my mind. Then I said "that makes a lot of sense! I think this is good." and I looked in the book and nearly the exact description I JUST said, was IN THE BOOK!!!! Trusting my intuition has always been an issue for me.. and when I opened that book... my soul said "THIS IS RIGHT!! You got this!!" and I was so proud of myself.  The last time I had one of those moments it was during an amazing Moon ritual I did in my room.  I hadn't practiced for a while and I opened my circle and was ready to start Ritual when I got this overwhelming energy and I was filled with estatic, excited emotions.  My soul said "THIS IS RIGHT!!" and I was happy.. I finished Ritual knowing that this is where I belong . Every time I doubt something, I think back to my "THIS IS RIGHT" moments and then the World is good again.

Aren't those just the most magical times of all?

Makes you love your place in this World just a little bit more! :)

Brightest Blessings to you and yours,

<3 Amanda

Thursday, January 20, 2011

An entry.... tomorrow

I was going to type out my entry tonight, but I am SO tired and have to be up in a few hours... so this will have to wait til I am up and moving around tomorrow. :) <3

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Dwelling on the past and future

OK, so I learned one thing today.  You can not completely cut past and future thoughts out of your life. Everything you do is because of the past or for the future... so I couldn't just STOP talking about things because if I said "i am doing this for group today" then I'm talking about the future, but I have to.

But. I did stop thinking about past and future things that overwhelmed me.  If i noticed my mind going to a past or future thing that wasn't relevant to the present, I directed my thoughts back to that present second. It worked all day for the most part. :) I'm happy about it. I had a good time with it. :) The mind is a powerful tool..

Brightest Blessings!

Love,

Amanda

Have you ever?

Have you ever felt that it's not the right time? I follow a large amount of blogs, like I think most people do and after not keeping up with them for so long I have a long list of them to read.  I never read all of the blogs I've missed, but I always scroll down to see if something catches my eye. Today I scrolled and scrolled and something told me "don't stop, you're not there yet" so I didn't. What did I find? An amazing, amazing... site that was posted in a blog I read. It was suggested if you're feeling down and well.. I was like "hm.. I'm skeptical" WOW. Was I wrong. I can't even remember what blog I saw it on now, because I am so blown away by this website and how it came into my life at the perfect time! It's the answer to everything I've been looking for lately. THE answer. and I need to tell you about it, so you can go check it out. HURRY, click the link! go NOW! and tell me what you think... I am just in awe.. and amazement... I almost forgot that I have to leave here in a few minutes because I was so.... inspired by this site... I feel so at home right now that I don't know what to do! Help me!! hah... What an amazing day... My goodness. Please check out this site.

http://www.goddessguidebook.com

click it!!!

Love,

Me~

Quote

This was a funny quote I just saw in a newsletter I read:

"These days, the witches are hardly old crones with twisted noses. They've got fishnets and you'd just want to jump in their cauldrons." -John Majdoch.


You can sign up for the newsletter here:


http://exclusivemagick.com/

Just go to "free newsletter" on the top bar! It's such a great little email newsletter that Lyn and Paul send out weekly.  I know they used to alternate weeks on who wrote the newsletter, but I am not 100% sure if that's still how it works.  The stories they post are always so interesting and I learn so much week to week from them! :) Check it out!

Love,

Me

Staying in the NOW

Wow. Isn't that hard? Focusing on this second only? We have the capacity to think about the future and the past and the present, but each can overwhelm us an incredible amount if we dwell upon it for too long. Today is my first day back to internship and then later today, class.  I am so overwhelmed by it all since I have missed so much time and I am trying VERY hard to stay in the now.  I would much rather panic about class than be doing what I am doing here.  The tricky thing I always noticed about my internship is that if I try to do homework here I always end up sleepy and have a lot of trouble staying awake, so I must not do reading homework here.  Unfortunately, that's most of my homework. If I had realized I had homework while I was sick, then I would have read up on things and taken charge, but I didn't. And in a split second I'm already focusing on the future and past... see how hard it is? I'm going to REALLY challenge myself today to stay in the present all day.  It might be a good challenge... I'll write about how the day went tonight, when it's over (once again.. I'm in the future).

Monday, January 17, 2011

Right now

I posted this in my other journal.. but I wanted to post it here too.


I should be sleeping... instead I'm hoping again for something that is a far off dream.  I'm talking to my dream boy via text and he sends me a text that says "I'm tired come hold me." Why...? I was fine just talking to him before that, but that makes me MISS him. I was thinking all day about him... I find myself thinking about him ALL day every few days. I can't talk to other guys... this is why I can't. I am pulled back in every time I hear from this boy. E-V-E-R-Y T-I-M-E. I love it, but I hate it. I think one of the main things is that... when we kissed. It was like no other kiss I have EVER experienced.  I haven't kissed many people in my short lifetime.. and I don't plan on kissing many more (outside of family, of course).. This was the most amazing kiss I have EVER dreamed of having. Maybe he's just a guy and knows his cards? Maybe I'm being tricked and pulled into something that I shouldn't be pulled into.  It was just... so odd because we both kissed the exact same way. I'm a vixen, let me tell you, and I have a way of kissing.  I have a science to it. I know what I'm doing in that field.. and I just never thought I could kiss someone who did the exact same way again. I just could not believe it. I think I'm still blown away by that... and how cute he was... if I kissed him while he was driving he would turn to me with the cutest little face and say "kiss me again! do it, do it, pleeeaaaseee" and would whine until I would.. and he would look at me instead of the road, which is dangerous.. so I would. He just CALMS my soul. calms me completely... just seeing him.. talking to him about anything.. I feel so relieved. Everything is going to be ok as long as he is there... my sister may think he's weird, but I think he's just like me. i know he's just like me... I feel like I'm not complete without him now.. since I met him. My great grandmother sent me him... I know she did after she passed away. I know she did. Is it too much of a dream? Am I caught in something lethal? Will this ever come to a new road.  Am I passing the new road? He always comes back...  I thought if I just stopped talking to him for a while everything would be ok, but it's not.. he always comes back. He ALWAYS messages me.  If I haven't talked to him in a while he will message me and ask why I haven't talked to him.  We don't even talk a lot... just a little bit.. It makes me want to cry... I know if he would just open up again it could be re-kindled. Or should it be? Is this just a friend thing? Am I just nuts? Am I crazy for thinking this? I don't know.  Did you ever say your bf or gf or sig. others name with yours to hear how it sounded? I always thought I would know when it was right for sure by that.  Mrs. Amanda ______. Amanda and Brandon.. I just think that sounds so right. Don't you? I don't know.. maybe no one will read this.  I am just lost right now.  I've been lost on this for a few years now... do I stay or do I go? I'm not sure... I do know that I should be getting ready for bed, but I'm typing this entry... and thinking about someone who is sleeping... in another state. I wish we were closer, so I could just FIND out for sure. I get so shy around him and so nervous though... and I feel like I look like such a slob now. I'm broken. He was right, he broke me. I never met someone who was SO similar to me... so I just... freaked out and broke. I don't know how to be me again. Am I me? Is this thought hindering who I am? Is this thought what's messing me up? Thinking that I'm not me... I've had readings done and they all say that I have a fog. I do. It's true... God. I just WANT to be with him. everyday... every night.. I want him. so bad. come on life, please give me a sign... Every person I know who is in a bad relationship meets a great person and then gets married and has the best time of their life. I thought this was like that... it has to be... If not, I'm lost... why couldn't that be me? Happy... It's been 2 years.. I think. Wow. It'll be 3 years since I broke up with my ex in 2 days. Wow. Time flies, huh? yep. I've changed a lot. for better or for worse.

Time for some helpful dreams and some thanks to the Universe...

Thank you.

Love Always,

amanda

this reminds me of a  thought... it's supposed to be easy. This isn't easy. 

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Reality Check

wow... talk about the power of dreams.  I've been in this funk since I've been sick for a week and a half and my dream just BROKE that.  I am feeling 80% better and ready to take charge again! OK, so in my dream the overall message was "you make your decisions, you are an adult" ok. So all my friends and family were in this dream and a new girl I was meeting. She seemed disatisfied with me because I had so many excuses for things.  Then I realized "that was my choice" those things I did were my choice.  So, I can either lay in bed and feel sick and miss classes forever or I can get up and get going again.  It's MY choice. and I chose to get up and get going.

In the time I've been sick I have been praying nightly, I've been using Reiki on myself for healing, I've been saying my Reiki ideals day and night (except today, i was too excited and forgot). I've been saying thanks and I've been doing everything I said I would.

Everyday I want to leave my house with fairy dust trailing from me, with the ground under my feet, and with new visions and insights along the way.  I am so excited for this. I am SO excited.   Things are changing right now <3

Saturday, January 8, 2011

What an amazing life

I recently had a "Spiritual Path" reading done by Maia of Twinflame Treasures at Etsy.com. (URL at end of post). It was the most amazing reading I have ever had.  Since then I am doing some serious thinking, thanking, meditating, creating, exploring... and any other -ing you can imagine.

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Today I came to a re-realization.  You have to embrace the gifts you are given.. even if sometimes it seems no one shares your qualities or treats you teh same way.. it doesn't mean you should stop.  Embrace YOU! You are made this way for a reason. I have a detail oriented personality.  I embrace the little things of everyday life and I used to be the happiest person in the world because of this, but I let it slip away due to peer pressure. Never loose yourself like that.  I'm re-embracing my detail oriented self and I am going to love being me all over again.  Taking care of others because that's what I was made to do... listening to the spirits and voices of the World, because they talk to me.. Enjoying every second of life because that's what it's here for.  Life is a gift... embrace it.  Life will be here regardless, but it's best you embrace your gifts in the time you can. :)

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I am feeling so great about this.  I have even started giving myself Reiki every night like I should be and I've been working with the animals in my house as well.  Soon I am going to get up the courage to ask my brother and his girlfriend if they'd mind trying it out. I'm going to break through my fears one at a time to clear this storm out. I've started saying my Ideals day and night... and embracing everything.

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I used to think that my time would come and I used to work my hardest because I knew it would pay off if even in the simplest ways, but I let that go.  Now I'm going to do that again.  Work my hardest all the time.  Time is here now for me and I'm going to enjoy that time. :) Go for a walk, venture through an un-charted pasture, meditate like I never have before, celebrate the holidays in a whole new way.  It's a new day! Remember that and embrace that.  I think I've got some little glittery friends hanging out right now too which is just lovely! :D Thank you guys for coming.  I know I see you every once in a while out of the corner of my eye. Thanks for that glimpse. I appreciate it. <3

Take care everyone and Brightest of Blessings!!

Love, me

Etsy URL where I received my reading: http://www.etsy.com/shop/TwinFlameTreasures

My Etsy shop: {I just made a banner for the store!! Tell me what you think! (: } http://www.etsy.com/shop/When1Angels4cry